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It’s been 3 months now since the last time she called and I heard her voice. Time really flies, I didn’t even know what date of the month it is today. I just don’t want to go back to our last conversation, the time where I lost everything. It still hurts up to now, I’m still crying. I’m stressed, troubled and worried. I don’t know where to start to make my life as it is before I met her. Covering my ears and closing my eyes can’t help for the memories are still here in my heart. I don’t know why I’m still crying, I don’t know where to go to ease even a bit of pain and sorrow deep within me, sorrow that covers my being deep within my veins, down under my bones. Can’t find a place to at least forget what hath happened between the two of us. All i want is silence, I want to forget and move on. I once heard that when someone breaks your heart, pick all the shattered pieces and try to put them together. I find it hard for I already lost my spirit and I don’t believe myself anymore. I think I lost my soul and I’m still searchin for it. I used to believe in things that I hear but as of now, I don’t think I’m capable of trusting anyone anymore. People says things which are makebelieve and once you believe them it is hard to accept when they failed to do so. She told me she loves me and she cares, I know she also said that to that guy when they’re together. I missed the times we’re together, I miss her eyes and her hair, her beautiful face and her smile; things that I miss whom I knew belongs to someone else now. I wish I never watched Titanic for she looks exactly like Rose though her eyes’s not green but brown. . .and I’m Jack? NopE! I’m the antagonist ^_^. I hate crying but I can’t help this water flowing out of my eyes. Pails of water that’s absorbed by the covering of the pillow where I lie my head to. I can’t be wrong I indeed love her and it hurts for I know this girl whom I used to touch will never come here, and the the memories we had together will never come to happen again. If it’s possible to sleep right now and wake up in that last day of my life I’ll sleep right away so I won’t live with this pain anymore. . . but I know that’s not going to happen, it’s impossible. I have to live with this missery for a long time. I really miss her terribly. . .but she’s with someone else now. I miss the times we’re together. . .though I knew it’ll never happen again "even in my dreams". I want to take all the blame though I didn’t did anything wrong. I remained faithfull till the end but it doesn’t matter to her. She chooses a path wherein I’m trapped in a situation that I don’t have any choice but to do what’s right . . . right that will never be alright for me to accept. She keeps insisting that she loves me and it was an accident. The last thing I heard she said is that she’s sorry, therefore she really has something to sorry for. That she really wanted what happend and I can’t do anything but to let her go. I want her to learn from what she did, I’ll try to fix this broken heart without her. It’s been 3 months now after that call and I think she’s 5 months pregnant now. I wish her and her up coming baby to be happy. And for that guy, I wish him the best for the family whom once I wished to be mine. I beg him not to hurt the girl whom I treasured more than my life, the girl whom I missed so much. And for the girl who used to be my girlfriend? Love the family you’re gonna be having, at least now I won’t worry for you that much especially those months that I called you, texted you, e-mailed you but you didn’t replied because of what hath happened. You know that it’ll hurt me but it hurts me more that you didn’t trusted me and let me know that you’re alright more than you betrayed me. I’ve forgiven you long ago, I accepted your shortcomings even the first time we’ve known each other. I forgive you though it hurts because I love you. I’m better now, I think for now I just have to accept the truth that’s all that’s left for me are memories. Please don’t be hard headed whom you used to be. Never break another heart and think first before you do something. I love you no matter what and I’m sorry because I know it’ll be wrong for me to fight for my love for you. I don’t want to hurt other peoples feeling. Don’t worry,  I’m just here praying for you.

etO na Yung coNcLUsiON KO sa zTe na YAn. . .  waLA daPAt kiNAlamaN ang cOMeLEc cOMMisiONer diYAn sA dEaL na PAng eDuCatION daPAt saME as to with Mr. Lozada na sa pResIdent nG pHIL. fOrest saMA mO na Rin sI NEDa coMmiSioNer RomULo nEri.MAhiRap hAnapAn ng LUsOt kaSi nGa nAMAn aNOng giNAgaWa ng mGa taONg iTo sa iSanG dEaL na mALAyO sA pRoPEsyON niLA.Kay AbaLos anG daMI aNOmaLYa na kINasASanGkuTan NG ComElEc baKIt di YUn asiKAsuHIn nYA at pUMApapEL siYA sA zTE.Si rOMuLO nEri naMAN haBang naNAnaHImIK siYA eh LAlo nYA piNAPALALA anG siTwAsYOn ayaW maN lanG nIYAng ipAgtanGGoL sAriLI niYA mEaniNg tO sAY na TOToO ang laHAt Ng siNAsAbi nI mR. JUn LozaDa. MahiRap tAlaGa di maGsaLita ng tOToO pAra Sa iSang EnginEEr Gaya ni mR. LozaDa kasI ang mGa engiNeEr eh nagbabasE ng kanILAng mgA caLCUlatiONs sA fActs di gaYA ng mGa pULitIKO at mGa aboGadO.As enGinEEr nUmEric vALuEs ang binAbasehaN niLA kaYA aLAm MO nAgsASAbi nG toToO kaSi kaHIt pAikut-ikUtin mo eh Yun pa Ring naUnang siNAbi niLA ang saSabiHIN at SASAbIHIN niLA.Buti maY ganYAn paGdiNIg sa SenaDo kaSi nakIKita ang mGa kAtaRanTaduHAn sa GObYerNO sa PAgkakasangkOt pa lAng ng mgA taOng di MO aaKALAin at alaM niLA sa SariLI niLA na Wala dapAt siLAng kinAlAman sa dEal na YOn eh MakIKita mO NA yuNg aNOMAlya.biNotO o niLAgay kAyo sa pOsisYON paRa gaMPAnaN ang pagLILIngKOd sa BayAn kAsO ang ginaGawa NYO eh NInanakAwaN nYO anG bAYAn.sAnA tamAAn Yung nagLAgay sa INYo sA pWEstO na di NyO namaN ginAGAmpANAn anG tuNgKUlin nYO KInUKUNsiNte pA kaYO.Kay MIkE dEfEnsOR at kaY maHAl kong maYNILA waG nIYO kuNsinTiHIN anG taO kAsi pUBlIC oFFicial kaYO daPAt padaLUHIn nYO sa SenADo di YunG tinAtAGO nYO at KAyo pa GuMAgaWA ng pArAAn PARa di MAkApAgsaLIta sa SeNAdO kitanG-klta tuLOy nA maY tinAtAgO kaYO!siNAsaLI nYO pA anG mga PULIs! pEra-PeRa lang naman sa banSang itO eh MgA mUKhang pEra mga naNUNUngkULAn mga gaHAMAn. saNA maY MAimBentOng micRopHONe na KApag nAgsaLIta ka dUN eH puRo toToO lang ang LALABAs NAkakArindI na kASi ang KAsiNUnGalinGAn nG mGa taONg goBYerNO na WalAng taKot sa DiyOs.

Tang ina talaga yang zte na yan! Nakikita na mga lapses na ginagawa ng mga tinatawag na otoridad sa gobyerno, mga pulis saka yung mga nasa immigration. Dapat palage meron maimbitahan sa senado para makita yung mga pagkukulang ng mga nasa katungkulan. Simpleng tanong lang di masagot samantalang mga nag-aral at may matataas na posisyon. Yung tanong kay Atutubo napakasimple lang; kung alam nya yung batas sa airport na once may dumating sa bansa o palabas ng bansa eh dapat ipakita yung passport sa immigration. Naturingan pa siyang chief security dun sa MIA e bang engot nya bobo siya! May sarili siyang batas sa kokote na pinapatupad. Simple lang naman tanong sa kanya kung alam ba niya yung regulasyon na pinapatupad sa lahat binabato pa nya sa immigration samantalang ang dapat na sagot nya dun e oo dapat iprisinta yung passport dahil yun ang pinapatupad.  Tapos tinanong din siya kung bakit may exclusive na lugar na dinaanan si Lozada samantalang hindi yun open less employee ka sa MIA or disabled ka! HAy naKO walang muwang si gago o baka naman nagtatanga-tangahan lang kasi may pinoprotektahan! Dun naman kay Razon isa pang bobo! hypothetical na nga yung question eh di pa nya masagot naturingan 4 star general na pulis walang stand sa isang bagay aso ni Gloria talaga. Sabi niya kasi nung tanungin siya na kung di siya papayag na maipasa yung zte dahil sa yung allocated na pondo ng PNP e masasagasaan dahil dun ang sagot ba naman e di nga natuloy! Ilang beses pa siya tinanong paulit-ulit sagot nya na di natuloy bobo talaga! Kung alam niya na masasagasaan yung pondo ng pulis syempre sagot mo hindi! . .  gagO! Tapos tinanong din si Mascariñas tungkol dun sa paghahatid kay Lozada sa Pasig biruin mo ba naman dalhin pa sa Cavite e diretso MIA pwede na mag u-turn sa may Bicutan pumunta pa ng SLEX wow tax po na binabayaran namin ang ginagamit nyong mga pulis sa gasolina ng sasakyan nyo! Tang-ina nyo gago simpleng ruta di nyo alam! Tapos gusto ko pa malaman kung ano ginagawa nung Robert na pulis din na sa Aviation din daw ng police idenedeny naman ng bobong si Razon. Wala kami katiwa-tiwala sa inyo mga gago buti ginagawa sa senado nakikita kabulukan nyo sama mo na yang si Neri saka si Mike Arroyo mga corrupt kayo! At least nakikita natin yung may utak sa gobyerno gaya nina Sen.Biazon, Lacson, Villar, Legarda, Cayetano na may kwenta mga sinasabi at tinatanong  pwera lang si Bong Revilla na kitang-kitang bobo at walang muwang sa nangyayare mag-artista ka na lang gago!

hehehe trip ko lang mag-post ngayon…It has something to do sa zte broadband deal na napanood ko kanina.Ngayon ko lang naunawaan kung ano ba talaga real score dun at kung sino-sino ang involve at yung laki ng pera na pinag-uusapan na kahit siguro pagtrabahuhan ko ng buong buhay ko e di ko kikitain.In good faith na lang kaya ako nag-post kasi kawawa naman talaga tayong mga pinoy na niloloko ng mga nasa gobyerno.Ganun pala sila kung kumumisyon 130 million di pa makuntento samantalang 132 million ang proposed budget ayaw pa ng almost 50% na kickback ganung wala naman pupuhunanin mga buhaya talaga.Ewan naipasa pa rin ata yun pero hindi lang ata 130 million tila 200 million pa ang pinatong na kumisyon"dollars po yun".Kawawa naman talaga tayo kasi tayo ang magbabayad nun kasi inutang yun tapos sa taxes na binabayad natin kukunin ang perang ihuhulog sa inutang na pera.Buti pa sila sa mga hotel nagmemeeting kasi tingin ko kung dun ka lang aasa sa kinikita mo bilang empleyado ng pamahalaan kahit na presidente ka pa eh di manghihinayang ka pa rin sa perang ibabayad mo sa mga exclusive hotels na nag-ooffer ng service sa mataas na halaga.Kaya pala nakakapag-aral sila sa iba-ibang bansa pati mga pamilya nila kasi sa perang ninanakaw nila sa kaban ng yaman.Tapos nakakapag-tour pa sila around the world wow naman ang swerte nila.Napansin ko kay Jun Lozada he’s speaking the truth kasi para banggain mo ang malalaking pangalan sa gobyerno tapos hindi totoo mga sasabihin mo di ba?Although nandun pa rin sa sarili niya yung pagprotekta nya sa sarili nya sa anomaly tingin ko nakuha nya lang yung mentality na sa sobrang lalaki ng perang pinag-uusapan nina Abalos at Fg Arroyo compare dun sa mga nakumisyon nung nagtatrabaho pa siya sa Forestry something eh tingin nya hindi kasalanan yung nakickback nya dun na maliit na halaga lang.Bahala sila sa sarili nila magpakayaman sila sana lang hindi nila pagsisihan ang mga ginagawa nila kasi hindi lang kami ang niloloko nyo pati sarili nyo at ang Diyos.Pwede naman mabuhay ng simple eh yung walang inaagrabyado at walang dinadaya.Bakit ba kami nakakaraos sa 300 pesos na ginagastos sa isang araw.Yung iba nga kape lang ang inaalmusal at hindi na naghahapunan samantalang kayo hotel hotel pa.Wag sana nila hintayin ang time na sa korte ng Diyos sila haharap kasi dun talagang mapapahiya sila at hindi nila matatakasan ang parusa di gaya sa mundong ito.

hAve YOu eXPeriEnCed liVing in A wORLD of MAkebEliEVe?I mean living iN a wORLd whEre eVerYThing YoU wanteD to HAppEn caME inTo ReaLIty?In a WoRld of IMaginAtION anD dReams?PeRhAPs we’Re liviNG iN thiS wOrlD riGht nOW witHOUt uS kNOwinG it.PeOple KeePS TeLLIng liEs aND wE kEEp oN bEliEving tO thiS liEs oVEr anD OvEr agAin.StArtING fRom thE MoMenT yOU oPEnED YOUr eYEs tO tHe tiME yOU’re rEadY fOR slEEp, wE hEar of thINGs thAt sOUnds NIce tO OUR eArs buT soMEthING wiThin US teLLS uS tHat tHOsE thiNGs rEaLLY doEsn’t haPPEn.Is iT fuN to Read A nEWspApEr?, a mAGAziNE?or wAtCh nEWs iN a tElEvisIOn?We uSuaLLy hEar thRough this mEdiA tHingS OPPosiTe tO whAt We bEliEve iN righT?fRom thE fiRst thRough thE lASt pAge oF theSe rEadinG meDium wE SEe sAme FacES oVEr anD oVEr tELLing liEs oVer anD oVEr agAin.tHE PrEsiDent tELLIng uS hoW sUCCeSSfUL ouR coUNtrY is wiThin thE paSt yEArs OF hEr tErm tELLing uS hoW thE doLLAr dRoppEd dOWn tO iT’s eXchAnGe raTe.ArE thOSe chAnGes hAs sOMetHIng tO do With uS?cAn wE fEEl anY iMPAct iN whAt shE’s sAying, tEN oF hEr gAbinEt mEMbERs?yeS thE dOLLAr rAte DrOPPed dOWn FoR aS loW as P40.00 sOmethINg nOwadAys bUt thE pRiCEs oF gOOds ArE stILL thE saME in Fact riSing isN’t it?If a hALF sACk oF riCe cOSt P500.00 aNd a RelATiVe aBRoAd sEnDs YOu 10$ wHo’se amouNt cAn buY thAt halF sAcK oF riCe aND noW thAt yOUr 10$ wILL juSt aMOunt tO P400.00 HoW maNY kiLOs dO yoU loSe?sEE wHAts the imPAct oF pEsO-dOLLAr ExCHanGe rAte wiTh unvariaBle cOSt of gOOds?aNd whAt sHE’s sORrY foR?fOR TELLing liES?TeLLIng uS a Few YEaRs aGo thAt sHe Won’t rUN buT sTill ruN?I wisH sHe’s teLLing THe TrUTh whEneVEr sOMetHIng goEs oUT oF hEr moUth or i BeTTer tELL hER nOt To spEaK oF uSElEss ThinGs.TurNIng tO anOthER pAgE of thE nEWSpAPER wE caN sEE gOVeRNMent OFFIciALS sEndiNG hElP tO thOSe wHO nEEDEd thEM, mAY i SAY fOr POpULAritY pUrpoSES foR We KNoW thAt thOSE aRE thEIR oBliGAtIONs aNd wHat thEY dO nEED nOT To Be PUbLIshEd.ISn’t iT fOR eVErY aCtION thERe iS an EqUAL oPPOsiTe REactION?dO thEY pROFit iN evERY pRoJECt thEY dO?wHerE’s thE cOMmiSSION?hehehe!aND wHY dO yOU hAVe tO pOst YOUr fACeS oVer anD oVEr tO thiNgs You thiNK yOU’Ve dONE wHERe iN fACt iT is YOUr ObLIgAtiON?HOW hYPoCritE!INstEaD oF rEAdINg thEIR hyPOcriSY We BETTEr tEnD tO rEAd thE eNtERtAINmENt SECtIOn aNd TaLK aBoUt liFe oF thoSe so CALLEd sTARs.Is thERe anYthINg oR soMEthing tO do With Us kNOwing thAt Ai-aI anD rOBin hAS a KIsSing sCEne nOR mARtiN aND pOPs waS onCe UNiTEd thEn sEpARatEd anD ThEn REuniTEd agAin?MAybE wERE dOing tHIs jUSt For fUN bEttER tHAn hEArinG liES.I wiSh thAt As I OpEn a nEWSPApER I cAn rEAd tHAt thE poLIcE cAughT thOSe dRug LOrDs raTheR thAN tHOsE sMALL tiME whO sELL iLLegaL dRuGs tO fEEd thEir fAMILy.I’M noT saYing sElling IllEGAL dRugs tO bE abLe tO pRoViDE nEEDs fOR thE faMILY iS a VALId REAsON,wHAt i’m sAying iS thAt thE aUthOritY sHOULd gEt thE rOOt oF thESE dRUg diStrIButiONs onCE anD foR ALL.I AlSO wiSh thAt aS i tURn tO anOthEr pAgE i CAn rEAd thAt a goVerNMent oFFiciAL cAUght dOin pLUnDEr.hEHEHe i REmEMbER aBouT jOK2x anD gARcI.i tHInK thESE thINgs thAt i thinK oF iS poSSIblE in A WOrlD oF mAKEBEliEVE.Don’t cAre whO’ll REAcT fOR i’m juSt tELLInG mY oBsERvATIONs.

Kinda fuNNY that I’m hERe again to POst a blOG.i JUSt want tO sharE thINGs thAt I thiNK oF.i dONt know wherE to stArt really so let me ask you first; why do you believe in gOd?Is thEre reALly a goD wHO care and look upoN us?fOr tHOSe PEoPLe whO doEsn’t beLiEve in gOD I caN’t queStiON thEm fOR thEre is NO pRoof to Be shOWn, fOR peOPLe beLieve only on thiNGs whICH cAn Be sEEn by thEir eYEs NOr hEard by thEir Ears.fOR mE, i bEliEVe in gOD bECauSE thE thiNGs thAt hE sayS hAppEns.Lots of pEoPLe whOM i KNeW pRomiseD oF thINGs buT fAilEd to Do so.thOUgh i cAnt shOW thEm tangiBLe pROOfs, I thINK deep within theM theY fEEl thE saME wAy tOO espEciALLy oN tIMes oF tRouBle and whEn thERe is nO shOULdeR To puT thEir hEads ON.whEneVer wE fEEl wORRIEd and trOUbled, that’s thE onLY tiME wE thiNK oF gOD isn’t it?It’s thE pErfEct tiME to AsK fOR hiS hELP anD guIdaNCe.iF thE thINGs We wiShed foR doEsn’t cAme tO haPPEn wE blAme gOD riGht?and IF thOSE thiNGs we aSked FOr haPPEnd, wE foRgEt whOM wE askEd fOR hELp.Now lEt mE asK yOU, if YOU arE in gOD’s sitUatiON, whAt wiLL yOU dO?heLP anD bE fORgoTTEn oR nOt do A tHINg and Be blAmed?I’m jUSt asKIng. . . NowadaYs, i NotICed thAt pEOPle puT all of thEir timE fOr EarthLY thinGs;monEy, niCe hOUse, luXuriOUs cArs, finE drEssES noT kNowinG thAt thEse tHIngs are Just tEmPOrArY.di bat ang PeRa ay InAAmag?anG bAhay aY inAAnaY?anG kOTsE ay kiNakALaWang at Ang DAMIt aY kUMUKUPAs?wHY did i opEneD uP thESe thiNGs?I kNow thAt eVeryonE of uS wiLL aGrEE thAt eVen uS pEOPlE arE tEMPoRArY,wE caN oNLY liVE a mAxiMUM oF a cEntURY noWadaYs.You migHt bE pREttY and GOOd lOOKing nOw buT afTEr a DecAde oR so You caN fiNd LInEs oN yOUR fOrhEAd,Your eYEs wiLL nOt be as cLear as BEfORe, YOUr eARs maY oNLy heAr tHIngs wHICh aRE lOUd and YOUre teEth onE bY onE fELL dOwN unTO yOUr mOUth.Isn’t it thE rEALIty oF liFE?caN wE dO aNYthInG aBout thIs REaLIty?iF We AlREadY knEW thAT wE’LL enD UP LaYINg inTo a CAskEt aFtER yEArs oF liVing tHIs liFe anD eVEntuALLY enDing UP unDeR thE grOUnd whErE pEOPle wHIcH aRE stiLL liVIng sTEPPeD inTo theN wHY dO wE inVEst tO tHOsE thiNGs thAT wiLL aLSo cAmE intO paST?Do YOU knoW whAT thE ONLY thINg in US thAt doEsn’t gRow OLD?mEMOriEs.wE CAN liVE oN thOSe PasT yEars reMAniscing thE thINgs thAt hATh pASSed thrOUgh mEmoRieS.Isn’t it niCe tO rEmaniScE abOUt gOOD thinGS thAt wE’vE dONE thE tiME wE fIND ouRSeLVes LAying inTo thAT bED anD can’t evEn bARelY sEE thE pERsON wHOm wE’rE taLKing tO?I wiSh mEMOriES wiLL bE as NICe aND gOOd thE tiME i fiNd mYseLf iNTo thAT siTuatiON.aND dO wE alL kNOw whAt wILL haPpEn on thE dayS to CoME?maYBe iM hEre wRitINg thIS bLOg righT noW bUt whO knOWs iF im sTill hEre toMOrROw?ONLY GoD knOWs.

I finally give up the idea of living this stupid life. I’m such a failure, I never done anything right in my life. If there is the best way to describe a looser, the dictionary would tell you the term ME. I can’t find any reason to live. Just 3 months ago, I loose my job as well as my gf. My gf fooled me because I am a fool. I gave up my job because of her but still, she left me. She is with her new bf now whom I know is rich, handsome, kind, smart, let’s just say. .  all the good characteristic that every girl would love. I feel sorry for myself,  I’m so weak, I’m depress and I’m tired.  I can’t count how many pails of tears I have cried because of Jen. In my life, I never asked God for anything special because I know He knows everything. When I was young, He used to give me things that will make me happy that’s why I believe Him; like toys, a great mom, nice clothes etc. I thought those thing will make me happy and satisfied but I’m wrong. She gave the only girl that I deeply love to a guy whom I can say. . . have everything in his life. He’s so lucky to have my gf and I think my ex-gf is happy with him too. Why did God do this to me? Why did he take the only thing that make me happy and give it to someone else? He’s so unfair. He’s unjust. He treat some people more special than the others. Yes I believe in God. There’s a God! A God of the mighty, god of the powerful, god of the rich, god of the wise. People who are mighty, wise, powerful are indeed the sons of God because they are unbeatable.  I don’t think there’s a God who cares. I’m poor, I’m weak, I’m not powerful. So I don’t deserve to be here in this world of the mighty. I’m ready to face what kind of punishment He’ll going to give. . . the burning fires of hell. Will I say sorry for all the things I’ve said? No! Bring it on. . . I don’t deserve anything but a painful end. Jen, I promise you’re gonna cry at least when you find out that I’m gone. Please be happy. I want you to be happy and so as your bf. Let’s just say it’s time to go. At least in hell where I’m going to go to. . . I can cry and  shout all these pains in my heart. Mom, please be strong. You still have my cousins who can make you smile. I’m sorry  for all the mistakes I’ve done and thank you for everything. Friends, thanks for knowing you guys. You make my life worthy for a while.  Please don’t give up in the challenges of life because you guys deserve to be happy. Don’t know where I’m goin. . . but this is my destiny byebye^^

May 03, 2007; ive been invited for an interview at People Support, a call center firm around Gil Puyat Avenue in Makati City.  I left the house around 10:00 in the morning  because the interview is scheduled 1:00, you know? giving allowance so I won’t be late for my appointments. I didn’t expect the traffic, I came to Makati around 12:45. I didn’t really know the exact place where to find the callcenter building. Last morning, I received a call from Ms. Nicole of People Support telling me about the said interview. . .  she asked me if I know the place and I just said yes for I am at the middle of my nap that time. I didn’t expect how vast the place is, I thought Gil Puyat was just an avenue but it was a large railroad with buildings and business firms around it. Sad to say but I am lost, I can’t find the place I was looking for. Even the people around the area didn’t even mind to show me the way how to get there. So after arriving almost late for the interview, I search for the place. . . It was around 1:45 in the afternoon that I decided not to attend the interview anymore, I can’t find where it is. In addition, sweat is all over my body, . .  It is not nice to attend an interview when you look haggard right??

Finally, I decided to go home, when an idea comes into my mind, I feel like walking, what if I circle Makati just to be familiar with the place? I am here so why not? `Nanghihinayang din ako sa pamasahe`. So I started walking starting at Arellano University. I passed Dian st. On my way to Bautista street, I saw 3 people resting under a closed building, they are untidy, the clothes they’re wearing can’t be called clothes anymore, lets just say they’re wearing rags. Dirt is all over their body, maybe they are beggars in Makati. An oldman, a middle aged man and a boy was the 3 people that I saw. I think they’re sick the way I see them. Their thin and pale, the middle aged man is shaking for I don’t know reason. So I passed Bautista street, on my way to Salcedo street, I saw these beautiful and handsome guys wearing neat and fine clothes. I would not even intend to look at the signs of those for I know I can’t afford to have one of those. I see people eating at Jolibee, most of them are couples may I say cause they’re so sweet the way I look at them. I was at the corner of Paseo de Roxas when I decided to ride the bus, I can’t stand the heat anymore, I’m busted and exhausted. Luckily, I easily got a bus to ride in. I sit near the rear part of the bus. I look outside the bus and I saw these luxurios buildings, a work of art, a masterpiece I say. but deep in my heart, I realized that beneath those tall buildings, at the back of those imported clothes, under those fine restos, there are people who needs help. People who can’t afford to eat 3 times a day, people who are unfortunate to see a doctor to know what kind of diseases they have.

Around Boni avenue, a guy ride the bus holding a pail with mineral water in his hands. He’s seeling those bottles to earn money. He’s so dark. I think it’s the effect of the burning heat of the sun. Then I remembered the incoming elections. I don’t want to vote I said to myself. Same faces are in the line-up of those aspiring to have a position in the government. I’m sick of their faces. . . faces that I see whenever I open the television or read a newspaper.  Then after the election what?? You won’t be able to see them anymore. "ngayon lang sila lumalabas kasi kailangan nila ng boto nyo" they’re spending millions and millions of pesos through their campaign flyers while many of our co-Filipinos are striving hard to earn money to ease their hunger and even going abroad leaving their family. Why? because the government can’t give them a job able to support their needs like; taking their children to school. And what about those video oke bars all over the country?? the nest of prostitutions?? What about those minors??. Why does the government support gambling businesses in the country when according to the law, gambling is prohibited?? They even have courage to show their faces in front of the camera wearing amerikanas and barongs.  HAHAHA!! I’ll just sleep on May 15. If anyone deserves a salute, those are those people who keeps on fighting in a world controlled by the power of certain individuals. So I just want to ask God. . . Where is this path taking us??? You’re will be done.

I’m very thankful to God for giving me loving and caring mom. My mom is the best mom in the Whole Wide World because she never fails to teach me Wonderful lessons in life. She’s smart and kind. I am Who I am because of my mom. She’s so supportive, she doesn’t push me to do things that I don’t like. I’m so proud to be his son. If I Will be given a chance to select a mom, I Will not take the chance nor think of choosing someone else better. My mom is the best!! I Wish her all the happiness in life that she haven’t had since my sister and father’s death 18 years ago. My mom is a fighter, she fights for What she believes in. She is humble for shoWing love and care to those people Who’m I say. . .  not that fortunate in life.

I’m not shoWy/talky When it comes to my feelings so let just this blog shoW you hoW lucky I am for having such an angel. Thank’s mom for everything. . .!! I promise to make you proud. I’ll do good to others just What you’re alWays telling me.

Hi guysZZ!! election na nman, please be wise sa pagvote ng mga candidates^^ kasi me, i don’t want to vote. Ito dapat first time ko magvote eh pero di n lang . . . ayoko magvote ng mga kumakandidatong di marunong sumunod sa election rules gaya ng tamang pagdidikit ng posters, nagkalat ng paninira sa mga kalaban at vote buying… karamihan sila ganun. ska bat ka boboto ng mga kandidatong sumusupport sa mga gambling businesses sa countries?? bakit?/ kumikita sila kasi ng malaki dun. Ngayon nyo lang makikita mga mukha ng mga iyan!! once manalo mga iyan, ni dulo ng daliri eh di nyo mararamdaman.^^ Isipin nyo yung mga kababayan ninyo na mahihirap na halos ala makain or kung makakain man eh di na 3 times a day. sana me sense?? Pikon talo!!